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22 avril I'm BackWhere to start?.....
Well, I've been pretty neglectful of my blog - to say the least
- a lot has been happening these last few months.
I started a new job at the beginning of the year,
doing accounts for an Import/Export company.
It's a great job and I love it -
although I never saw myself as an 'Office Bitch' (joke)....
The people I work with are all a really good bunch.
Where am I at with my band? I've now lost 21 kilo's,
I had my 4th fill last Thursday and I'm happy to say
I think I'm getting close to the 'sweet spot' (good restriction),
I ate one piece of soy & linseed toast with one
scrambled egg for dinner and was full.
I spent Easter in Dubai - work related - It was absolutely fantastic,
we had one work dinner/function (dinner in the desert)
and the rest of our time was to do as we pleased.
I have to admit I did miss the kids and John,
but loved the experience all the same.
Any way, I'll have to post some new pics soon,
and I must make myself write here more often....
3 janvier I'm BackWe ended up leaving for our holiday early, it was good to get away.
Unfortunately my brother inlaw's mother died just before Christmas, after a 6 month battle
with cancer. Lorrie was a beautiful woman, wife, mother, and grandmother. Scotty (bro inlaw)
helped organise Lorries funeral, and then wanted to get away and let go a bit, before the funeral
on new years eve. The funeral was beautiful and Lorries life was celebrated.
Our trip away was great. The beach was beautiful, with clear green water.
We swam, swam and swam some more. Fished, rode the motorbikes, towed
the kids behind the boat on skimboards and bodyboards, it was fantastic. We ended up having
Christmas and Boxing Day up there. Boxing Day was absolute torture - Perth had the hottest day
on record for many years - 44c, and up near Jurien Bay (where we were) it was about 46 or 47 degrees
celcius...
And now that we are back we are still having shockingly hot weather, today and the last few have been
above 40 - last night at 11pm it was still 35. Not a good thing for us - we don't have air-con!!! So we've
been sweating it out.
The afternoon of New Years Eve was spent at Lorries Funeral. Then we went to a big party at a friends house.
And it was a good night - I rarely drink alcohol, but when I do I make a bloody good job of it.. lol.
My god it was messy, shooters all night. Not messy as in throwing my guts up, but pissed as a parrot.
I still can't believe I woke up without a hangover.... so unlike me! Now I have to work off those extra calories.
I'm sitting out the back at the moment, typing away on my laptop, it's too hot inside, anyway I've got a bit of
entertainment happening here... the feral junkies down the road are fighting AGAIN... I'm so sick of this shit.
Smashing bottles, screaming their guts out, bashing each other all the time. I have to tell my kids they
can't play in our backyard at least twice a week - because they shouldn't have to listen to this crap.... and I don't
want them hearing it either. It's just one big old party house there. And I'm not talking just smoking a bit of
grass either - that I could tolerate - these are full on needle freaks, with sores all over their faces and bodies
wasted away to nothing but skin and bone.
Anyway - the holiday was great, we will probably go again next Christmas holidays. I'll put some photos
up, not of me though, I was the one hiding behind the camera.
I'm still the same on the scales, but I haven't gained weight over Xmas so I'm happy with that.
Also I'd like to say thank you for the comments people have been writing, I really appreciate you taking the time
to read my blog, and it truely warms my heart to read your comments.
Happy New Year to you all.
18 décembre First FillI went for my first fill today - at last!
I now have a bit of restriction, just in time for Christmas ,lol.
My Surgeon was very happy with my weightloss, I've now lost 12kg in the 5 weeks since surgery.
The only place I'm really seeing it is in my face, but the rest is bound to start showing soon (I hope).
My next appointment was supposed to be in 5 weeks time, but the surgeon is going on holidays,
and is fully booked when he comes back, so I have an appointment on the 7th Feb '08, and will
probably get a top up fill then (in 7 weeks).
I can not believe it is only 1 week until Christmas.... sigh.
We are going away for our first family holiday (ever) on Boxing Day, I'm so excited.
We'll be camping on the beach, the kids are going to love it. We are going away with my sister,
her partner and kids, as well as a couple of other families we know.
I'm looking forward to going for long walks on the beach, instead of pounding the suburban pavement...
it will be a nice change. And who knows - I might even swim (oh my god), so please, I beg you, do not go
whale watching from Boxing Day to New Years - Just joking, we'll be in a pretty secluded spot up north.
We went and brought a tent and all the camping gear we needed on Saturday. The fishing rods have come
out of hibernation, the Quad bike is ready to go, and John has set up the 4wd, all we need to do now is pack.
I have great memories of going camping when I was a kid. We need to start creating great memories for our kids now,
before time passes us by and it's too late.
I must apologise for my last post too. It was a bit harsh, but when I started this blog, I made a promise to myself -
The promise being that I would be totally honest with myself about this journey, not 'sweep feelings under the carpet'
and I suppose also to be honest with the people who may read this. I knew it wasn't going to be all roses when I decided
to have this band, and I believe other people considering this surgery should know that the ups go with the downs - BUT
the ups are what keep you going, you do overcome the downs. Banded or not, everyone has a shitty few days every now and then, lol.
Anyway - that's enough of my dribbling for one day, Amy
11 décembre One Month TodayToday is 4 weeks since surgey.... God it has gone quick.
I'm a bit pissed off and confused at the moment - the reason being - I still weigh the same
as I did 2 weeks ago.... but am fitting into clothes I couldn't 1 and 2 weeks ago!
So - shrinking in size but not on the scales, I feel embarresed by this, but know I shouldn't.
I feel upset because everyone asks 'how much have you lost now?'. All I can tell them is
'Still the same'.... It feels so much like failure!
My mum rang the other day and asked the same question, when I told her all she said was 'Oh'...
I felt like a child again, eager to please, but unable to come to the party. I felt that she was disappointed,
and in turn, so was I.
Maybe I should let you all know - I'm the only one in my family who struggles with my weight,
my mum never has, always a nice size 10 - and my 3 younger sisters are all thin too.. in fact one of them
can't put weight on - I remember a few years ago she took a course of weight gain supplements (the kind
body builders use) and she lost a kilo!
The pressure to lose weight first came when I was about 15. I had a great body then, never ate crap,
played netball about 3 to 4 times a week, and ran most days.
I used to get embaressed when my mum said to people (in front of me) what a beautiful hourglass figure I had.
I started getting unwanted attention from older men - inappropriate comments, unwanted advances
etc. I started to loathe my body, and the attention it was drawing to me. I began to eat shit food,
I think sub-conciously knowing what would happen, because when someone in my family started saying
'Do you want to look like Aunty *****' (my beautiful Aunt, who is large - but one of the nicest people you'll meet),
I thought 'Fuck You' and would eat even more....
Anyway, that's just a bit of backround for you all - I can't believe I'm going to post this.
Yes I'm feeling a bit depressed and discouraged at the moment - but, I will be fine.....
Until next time - Amy
4 décembre Three Weeks Post-OpI haven't posted in a while, so I thought I'd better.....
It's now 3 weeks since I got my band and all is going really well.
I saw my surgeon last Wednesday for my 2 week post-op checkup. He was happy with the way I have healed,
and also my weightloss. I'll be going back to see him on the 18th of December for my first fill....Yippee,
and that was a genuine Yippee, I'm feeling the hunger lately and can't wait to get some restriction -
I'm not eating as much as I used to though - Thank God!
I started walking last week and am now walking everyday for 40 minutes so far...(3.5 km).
Nothing like I was doing a few years back - I was walking 10 km's daily, and thus lost 32 kg's,
but when I stopped walking I put on all that weight - and more!! But hey, that's been the story of my life 'til now lol.
I've been dragging the dog along too...literally. She's all excited when I whip out her lead, and good walking for about
15 - 20 minutes, then I think she's had enough. I was quite frustrated today, we were about 20 mins from home and I
seriously thought I was going to have to carry her home - I don't think so! - she's a big mastiff.....So that's the end of
our long walking partnership.. just short ones for her now.. I'm gonna have to do the long ones alone.
 11 kg's gone - and plenty more to go.
 26 novembre AmazingToday I went up to our local Coles Supermarket to do our weekly shopping.
When I got up to the checkout to pay, I was absolutely amazed - The woman
serving me used to be a very large person - and now she's not!
I said hello to her and complimented her on how great she is looking, she then told
me she has had a bit of help, she has a lapband! I told her I am 2 weeks post op, and asked
her how long she has had hers - get this - 8 months, and she has lost 70 kilo's.........
Excuse my language here BUT unfuckenbelievable!!!! I take my hat off to her.
Anyway I just wanted to share that, as I find it amazing - and I don't know the lady
but if you ever read this - I'm telling you, you're fantastic, things like that make someone
like me embarking on my journey want to try that little bit harder to get where you are. 25 novembre Getting Hungry NowIt's now 12 days since I got my band in, and I have to admit, I am starting to get hungry.
I'm due to see my surgeon this Wednesday and I am hoping he may allow me to start on
something a bit more satisfying than fluids.... I am over protein shakes, to the point they
are making me feel sick just thinking about them! Urrrgh!!
I have to go looking for a graduation dress for my daughter M this week, I can't believe
my little girl is off to High School next year! Actually she's not so little any more - 12 yrs old
and 5 feet 10 inches tall - towering over me already (I'm 5ft 7).
Nothing much else has been going on, apart from being busy with the kids sports.
I have put up a couple of photo's today of 1 week post op, I know there's not much
difference but hopefully as I go along we might see it. Until next time - Amy 20 novembre Feeling GreatWell, it's been one week today since the op. I am feeling absolutely fantastic!
I am back to doing normal things now, vaccumed and mopped the floors yesterday
without any pain or discomfort. I could actually say that it doesn't even feel like I have
had surgery now, the recovery has been a very quick one (thank god!). The thing I am
having a hard time getting my head around is the fact that I have dropped just under
9 kg's in a week!
I'd just like to say thankyou to Ms Ana for that beautiful message
you left me, I have added you to my friends list and am looking forward to getting to
know you.
Our mouse race that was held on the weekend did a fantastic job of bringing
money into the Tee Ball club, we raised $5000, it was a great night, full of laughs.
My son A came up to me this morning and gave me a cuddle, there's nothing unusual
there as he is quite affectionate, but what really made my heart swell was when he said
"Mum, you feel thinner!" He knows the right words to say huh, lol.
Until next time, Amy 16 novembre Three Days Post OpIt's three days post op today. The pain has decreased considerably thank god! I got up this morning feeling really quite good,
but as the day has gone on I'm feeling a bit tender around the incision sites, in particular the port site.
Not much has been happening today, apart from my good friend A came to visit with her girls. That was really nice,
I have to admit a bit of my tenderness could be caused by my laughing while they were here. I had a protein shake for
breakfast today, and then for lunch I had a bit of soup and I'm still full, there is no way I am able to fit dinner in tonight.
The kids have Tee Ball tomorrow and that will be my first trip out of the house since getting home from hospital, I can't
wait, I'm going crazy cooped up in the house. Then tomorrow night we have a Mouse Racing Night for Tee Ball, that should
be a laugh, I will be taking it easy though, I helped organise it but all I'll really be able to do is draw the raffle tickets etc.
Hopefully we'll raise a decent amount of money for new equipment and so on. Until next time - Amy
15 novembre I'm Officially BandedI'm officially banded. I ended up staying in hospital for the night, due to my oxygen levels being
to low. But the operation itself all went fine. The wait is over and now I'm looking forward to
recovering and being able to start walking and shifting this weight. I've been in a bit more pain
than I expected, but all that will be worth it in the long run. My husband J has been absolutely
fantastic, he went and bought me a new blender yesterday, and new pillows to make sure I'm
comfortable. He has taken a week off work and has been doing the Mr Mum duties. He's been
a great support to me. I'm going back to see my surgeon on the 28th November. Keep your eyes
peeled for thinner photo's in another few weeks time. Until next time, Amy 12 novembre One SleepOne more sleep. 10 more hours and I'm due at the hospital.....I'm excited.
I'm not looking forward to going without my morning coffee hit though, but yes, it would
be worth going without coffee for years, just to be able to get this done.
I've got everything in order, my admission papers, medication, bank cheques are all ready
to go. New healthy life here I come. I've been waiting for this day for what seems like forever.
Wish me luck, I'm going to kiss my kids goodnight and try to get an early one tonight........
I've got a long life ahead of me, I need all the energy I can get to live it to the fullest.
I'll be back - and banded. 11 novembre CountdownIt's soon to be surgery day, 2 more sleeps..... I'm quite excited, but also feeling a bit strange.
As I said th other day, it will also be J and my wedding anniversary and also the day we met
15 years ago. I feel a bit anxious, and I know it may sound stupid, but J and I met a a mutual
friends funeral 15 years to the day on tuesday. I can't help feeling a bit scared that something
might happen to me on the operating table. I'm not usually a superstiscious person, but I'm
crapping myself, a few years after we bought the house we are living in at the moment I was
going through some papers when I came across a newspaper clipping. It was about our friend B,
He died 1 street away from where we are living, and we met at his funeral, freaky....
Enough of that, I just keep telling myself I'll be fine.
I have been totally honest with people I know about my having this surgery. I have to admit I am
quite suprised that not one person has been negative about it. In fact everyone has been extremely
supportive, for which I am grateful. 9 novembre Four Sleeps FridayIt's Friday and only four sleeps to go, god, I sound like a kid counting down to Christmas.
The admissions nurse from the hospital rang me today, she was lovely, she just asked me
some questions about my health, let me know what to expect and also informed me I am
third on the surgeons list that day. I am having my surgery as a day procedure, so I'll be
home late that afternoon. I also took myself off to the chemist and health food store today,
and got some Accomin (vitamin supplement) and protein formula. I've nearly finished the
book I spoke about in yesterdays post, it's a good one. I wish I could just go to sleep now
and wake up and it will be Tuesday morning..... 8 novembre Getting ReadyToday I had my blood tests done for the up and coming surgery. Not long to go now.
I picked up a great book from the library today, titled Weight Loss Surgery, it's written by Merle Cantor Goldberg (LCSW),
George Cowan JR. (MD) and William Y Marcus (MD). It's full of valuable information and insight on the procedure,
and also what to expect. I am finding that at my heaviest now, at the end of the day my feet, ankles and knees are killing me.
My Uncle made a comment to me the other day when I was helping him move some furniture,
he said something about how strong I was. I was thinking about that today, and it dawned on me,
anyone that carried around an extra 55 kilo's everyday would have to be strong just to hold themselves up.
Strange thoughts today, I've been doing a lot of thinking about my weight, where as i wouldn't normally give
it a second thought (apart from 'Oh shit my jeans are to tight' or 'God my ankles are killing me').
Roll on Tuesday (surgery day), 5 sleeps to go!
7 novembre Fat Photo Day I had my fat photos taken today (pre op photos), my sister (S) took them for me. I hate having my photo taken at the best of times,
never mind a beautiful and size 8 person behind the camera!! (no offence meant there S, just my own insecurities rearing their ugly heads).
I went out to a nice cafe for lunch with my Mum, Sister S, Sister E, Uncle K my Grandma and a friend of hers, it was really nice to see my Grandma and Sisters,
we don't catch up very often. My Sister A couldn't make it though and was a bit pissed about it. (No I don't have a Sister X Y or Z).
Anyway I've taken the jump and put the fat photos out there for the world to see. Six more sleeps and my surgery day is here, these are probably going to be the longest six days of my life. I am very fortunate to have 100% support from my husband J, my beautiful kids M & A, as well as all of my family.
The day of my surgery is also J & my wedding anniversary - 15 years together and 8 of them married. How time flys.
Until Next Time
Amy 6 novembre My Lap Band JourneyWell, it's one week from today and I will be banded......I'm so excited, I am finally looking ahead to a healthy and happy future.
I'm 31 years old, 171cm's tall and weigh in at 133 kg's on doctor's scales and 136 kg's on mine (massive).
I have decided to start this blog so I can look back at what I was, and hopefully help other people along the way who are facing simlar challanges.
I have struggled with my weight for along time now. I'm looking at using this as a tool to aid my weight loss journey.
My sister is taking before photo's for me tomorrow (I hate having my photo taken), but I will put them on here tomorrow night, then I will update
them regularly with (hopefully) thinner ones..
Until Then
Amy |
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