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11 décembre

One Month Today

Today is 4 weeks since surgey.... God it has gone quick.
 
I'm a bit pissed off and confused at the moment - the reason being - I still weigh the same
as I did 2 weeks ago.... but am fitting into clothes I couldn't 1 and 2 weeks ago!
So - shrinking in size but not on the scales, I feel embarresed by this, but know I shouldn't.
 
I feel upset because everyone asks 'how much have you lost now?'. All I can tell them is
'Still the same'.... It feels so much like failure!
My mum rang the other day and asked the same question, when I told her all she said was 'Oh'...
I felt like a child again, eager to please, but unable to come to the party. I felt that she was disappointed,
and in turn, so was I.
 
Maybe I should let you all know - I'm the only one in my family who struggles with my weight,
my mum never has, always a nice size 10 - and my 3 younger sisters are all thin too.. in fact one of them
can't put weight on - I remember a few years ago she took a course of weight gain supplements (the kind
body builders use) and she lost a kilo!
 
The pressure to lose weight first came when I was about 15. I had a great body then, never ate crap,
played netball about 3 to 4 times a week, and ran most days.
I used to get embaressed when my mum said to people (in front of me) what a beautiful hourglass figure I had.
I started getting unwanted attention from older men - inappropriate comments, unwanted advances
etc. I started to loathe my body, and the attention it was drawing to me. I began to eat shit food,
I think sub-conciously knowing what would happen, because when someone in my family started saying
'Do you want to look like Aunty *****' (my beautiful Aunt, who is large - but one of the nicest people you'll meet),
I thought 'Fuck You' and would eat even more....
 
Anyway, that's just a bit of backround for you all - I can't believe I'm going to post this.
Yes I'm feeling a bit depressed and discouraged at the moment - but, I will be fine.....
Until next time - Amy 
 

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Thellya écrit :
Hi it is Thelly again please do not get upset because you did not loose anything if yo are fitting into stuff that you have not before well there has to be something going on. Toning as you go will be so much better then having lots of extra skin so keep your chin up YOU will get there be strong
                                     Cheers THELLY
11 Déc.
J Leea écrit :
Hi Amy,
My name is jilda, I have also had lap band sugery. My weight loss has not been as rapid as your shopping centre friend but Its coming off slowly. To date I have lost 27 kilos and still coming down. I am now not concerned about achieving my ideal weight by yesterday, I know it will come off eventually and I am enjoying the journey. I have also taken photos of my post op weight and I am so much different to the person that I once was. The weight loss has only been a small part of the overall journey. As the weight started to come off and I started to feel good about myself my whole way of thinking has changed. I no longer agonise about every morsel that passes my lips. In fact I eat complete crap a lot of the time but not much of it. because I can't. I am finding myself prefering healthier food choices. I have gained a positivity about life that I have not felt for a very long time. As the scales were creeping up over the years I began to hate my very existance, even when I was much smaller than I am now. I find that with every kilo lost my feelings of self worth are increasing and I am finding my whole outlook has changed. I am no longer a skinny person in a fat persons body, I am a fat person with a skinny persons mind. Never give up never give in, It will happen how can it not, above all else, enjoy the transformation. And a word of advice, Because you are looking so god damn hot this week, don't go out buying a heap of new clothes because you won't get your moneys worth out of them 
11 Déc.
Ms Ana ...a écrit :
 
You poor thing,
 
You HAVE lost fat ... you are walking now and building muscle in your legs, arms and torso.  Muscle weighs more than fat - so the scales show no difference.  This is why you can see the difference (and so could I on the last photo you posted).
 
Please don't get discouraged, the scales can be very misleading.  A better way to keep an eye on your progress and body changes is to measure yourself as well as weigh yourself.  Measure yourself around your thighs, hips, stomach, bust, upper arms and neck.  These measurements will show you changes even if the scales don't.
 
I know when I had a great week, I'd go in to weigh myself KNOWING I had lost weight, but the scales wouldn't show a thing.  I would almost be in tears feeling like a failure.  But each month (the same date) I'd measure myself and that is where I continued to see the difference - regardless of what those damn scales said, lol.
 
So please, don't feel depressed.  You are doing so well ... it is a slow journey as well.  No-one gained 20 kilos in a week - and you can't lose it that quick either.  Weight creeps up on you slowly, you don't notice it until you get to a stage where you feel uncomfortable.  So why is it that we feel we have to lose it at such a fast pace?  Yes, I know - we all want to transform ourselves virtually overnight - but reality is a bit slower, unfortunately.
 
I KNOW you will do this, you will be successful and proud of your achievement at the end of your journey.  So just take it a week at a time, and remember - no journey is a straight road, there are always a few twists and turns.  Weight loss is the same, but as long as you are headed in the right direction you will eventually arrive at your destination.
 
I'm so proud of you and I don't doubt for a moment that you are more than capable of achieving your dream.
 
Ana
11 Déc.

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